Jeff wanted to believe what Nick was saying... That it was easier having your friends there... the people that you loved back home. But it was hard to accept when the person he loved most back home was sitting right in front of him and he belonged to someone else. Still, Jeff wasn't ready to bring that up, especially not when Nick was with Quinn now, and seemed happy. He couldn't do that to him right away. "Yeah. I guess that's true. I mean, it's different, but it's really not all that different, either. It's like a really nice vacation, where nobody has exactly all the same background as me... Not even... my best friends." Fuck, why was it so hard to refer to Nick as his friend? Easy. Because that wasn't all he was, and it never would be in Jeff's mind. And this was killing him. He found himself wondering if this would be easier if Nick weren't here at all, or if it was better to have him in some aspect than not at all.
"How the hell does that even happen? Kurt and Blaine went through so fucking much hell. They finally got their happy, and followed through with it, and karma takes Kurt away? How is that fair? I mean, I get that life's not fair, but goddamn... It just doesn't make sense." For the moment, he was going to leave the comment about things feeling right or wrong alone. Clearly, he was just making things more weird and awkward instead of helping anything, and he needed to stop doing that before Nick just didn't want to even talk to him at all. "I'm sorry," he said finally. "There's just... It's a lot to wrap my head around. I'll get it, though. You know me. I've always been a slow learner. You used to get so mad at me for going nuts around the dorm room when you were trying to study."
But then, Nick was revealing to Jeff the point in time he'd come from, and before he could stop it, Jeff's jaw was falling open, only to be snapped back shut just as suddenly. "Right after we..." he began, before closing his mouth again. They'd been so damn drunk that night, but Nick had bottomed, so Jeff knew without a shadow of a doubt that he'd know he had gay sex with somebody the night they'd slept together. Which meant that Nick possibly remembered the whole thing, and that was a whole new can of worms that was opening in a hurry.
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"How the hell does that even happen? Kurt and Blaine went through so fucking much hell. They finally got their happy, and followed through with it, and karma takes Kurt away? How is that fair? I mean, I get that life's not fair, but goddamn... It just doesn't make sense." For the moment, he was going to leave the comment about things feeling right or wrong alone. Clearly, he was just making things more weird and awkward instead of helping anything, and he needed to stop doing that before Nick just didn't want to even talk to him at all. "I'm sorry," he said finally. "There's just... It's a lot to wrap my head around. I'll get it, though. You know me. I've always been a slow learner. You used to get so mad at me for going nuts around the dorm room when you were trying to study."
But then, Nick was revealing to Jeff the point in time he'd come from, and before he could stop it, Jeff's jaw was falling open, only to be snapped back shut just as suddenly. "Right after we..." he began, before closing his mouth again. They'd been so damn drunk that night, but Nick had bottomed, so Jeff knew without a shadow of a doubt that he'd know he had gay sex with somebody the night they'd slept together. Which meant that Nick possibly remembered the whole thing, and that was a whole new can of worms that was opening in a hurry.