"Oh," Jeff replied quietly, feeling like he really should say something else, but not knowing exactly what it should be. Maybe he needed to accept that all of this was just the way things were here, like Nick said. Maybe he had no choice but to just realize that he wasn't Nick's other half here. He hadn't been a part of Nick's life for ten years as far as the other man was concerned, and that realization hit him like the force of a meteor hitting earth. With that realization, Jeff actually bit down on the inside of his jaw so hard he tasted blood to keep the tears from coming on. He couldn't help but take a shred of hope from the statement that Nick and Quinn weren't ready for the next step. Maybe he was grasping at straws -- he probably was. Nick had been with Quinn for a few years, and hadn't seen Jeff in ten years. Ten fucking years. Why would he wait around forever for Jeff when he didn't even know what had happened between them after that crazy night? "Quinn's great. I knew her and Kurt were really close back in school. I'm glad they've got each other here."
Wide-eyed, Jeff looked up at Nick, burying his toes in the sand absentmindedly. "You... You saw him when he was hurt? Or after he was in the hospital? I'm honestly still trying to wrap my head around all of this. I'm sorry... I know I have to be frustrating you. I'm just... In the time that I left, you were... about the same age as you are now. But you'd had a whole different life than the life you have here, and the memories that I have of you aren't... aren't your memories at all." He couldn't think too long about any of this right now, or he'd end up a weeping snotty mess right here in front of Nick, and that would just suck beyond belief. Instead, he was tucking all of this away, and later on, in his room at the resort, he'd probably lock himself in and cry his eyes out for hours. But for now, he'd just converse like this was relatively normal. "I'm glad you weren't alone," Jeff replied. And that was true. This place was intense enough for an adult. Trying to imagine being a kid here was scary, and even more so with the thought of being alone and not having any of your friends and family around.
"I think I'd get curious," Jeff replied. "ADHD would kick in and I'd have to know everything. But then again, maybe it would be better not to know certain things. I mean... I don't know what I mean... I just... I'm sorry. I'm not trying to make no sense, ba... Nicky." Shit. He'd almost slipped up there, and fuck -- he couldn't do that. He just couldn't. It was only going to make things harder and more complicated.
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Wide-eyed, Jeff looked up at Nick, burying his toes in the sand absentmindedly. "You... You saw him when he was hurt? Or after he was in the hospital? I'm honestly still trying to wrap my head around all of this. I'm sorry... I know I have to be frustrating you. I'm just... In the time that I left, you were... about the same age as you are now. But you'd had a whole different life than the life you have here, and the memories that I have of you aren't... aren't your memories at all." He couldn't think too long about any of this right now, or he'd end up a weeping snotty mess right here in front of Nick, and that would just suck beyond belief. Instead, he was tucking all of this away, and later on, in his room at the resort, he'd probably lock himself in and cry his eyes out for hours. But for now, he'd just converse like this was relatively normal. "I'm glad you weren't alone," Jeff replied. And that was true. This place was intense enough for an adult. Trying to imagine being a kid here was scary, and even more so with the thought of being alone and not having any of your friends and family around.
"I think I'd get curious," Jeff replied. "ADHD would kick in and I'd have to know everything. But then again, maybe it would be better not to know certain things. I mean... I don't know what I mean... I just... I'm sorry. I'm not trying to make no sense, ba... Nicky." Shit. He'd almost slipped up there, and fuck -- he couldn't do that. He just couldn't. It was only going to make things harder and more complicated.